She was bewildered by her own reaction

Clary couldn't deny the attraction that flamed between herself and Morgan Caird when they met in England. But she didn't believe in love at first sight.

Neither did she believe that a powerful, experienced man like Morgan would be permanently affected in the same way. So she refused to have anything to do with him and hurried home to New Zealand.

Morgan proved her wrong. His pursuit was relentless, unavoidable, seductive--though she kept on fighting him. It took a long time for Clary to realize it was herself she was fighting-and that their love was real.