What if the truth destroys us both?

Leaving North Carolina five years ago was the best thing that ever happened to me. I never planned to return. Yet here I am, back where the ghosts still haunt me — where I ruined everything and left a piece of myself behind that I’ve never gotten back.

Cole Whitaker was destined for hockey greatness, while I would never be more than a mediocre ballet dancer.

He is absolute perfection on ice.

I’m drowning in a sea of lies.

Cole wants answers I’m not ready to give. But I’m too tired, too weak — I can’t fight him any longer.

Terrified of what might happen, I’m forced to face my fears… and the boy I left behind.

*This books contains an eating disorder, suicidal/depressive thoughts and talks of self-harm. Please read at your own discretion.*